What is love?

What is love?
I ask myself
And I don't really know

I know I care
And want to protect
But is that really love?

Is love itself the longevity
The desire to care
To protect

And although it may not feel exciting
Is that love?

Is that what it's supposed to be
No hearts and flowers
But care?

On a scale where you'd lay down your life
To shelter
To provide for and protect.

Is love itself the longevity
The desire to care
To protect

And although it may not feel exciting
Is that love?

That stomach flipping
Sickly feeling that makes us feel alive.
Is that just infatuation?

Is what happens when something's new
Not love
But a chemical reaction.

Is love itself the longevity
The desire to care
To protect

And although it may not feel exciting
Is that love?

When we 1st meet everything feels electric
And over time
Well, normality kicks in

Do we love each other less
Because normality took hold
Or do we indeed have more?

Is love itself the longevity
The desire to care
To protect

And although it may not feel exciting
Is that love?

Or does love actually not exist
And we simply fit together
Some of us forever

Whatever the truth
Relationships are special
And the good times we should treasure

Is love itself the longevity
The desire to care
To protect

And although it may not feel exciting
Is that love?

The bad times are a challenge
And will take your heart
And stamp on it

So 1st and foremost
Love yourself
And the other stuff, let it be.

Blind faith

I can laugh now,
reading my own words back,
And that's a result itself
Because laughter was absent last year
With my fucked up mental health

But what I find amusing
In my musing here last year
Is that 2013 seemed the answer
And now 2013's here!

And nothing really changes,
Midnight only really dawns tomorrow
Not a new life, not redemption
No joy will spring from sorrow

I understand its a point in time
Something on which to focus
But new year isn't magical
There'll be no hocus pocus!

The changes in ones self don't need
A Calendar to alter
You're the only one who decides
If you press on or if you falter

I heard myself say that
I'd "had a bit of a bad year"
And fair enough I suppose all told
I had shed the odd tear!

But I'm the master of myself
And know the changes I have to make
To ensure that going forward
I don't make the same mistakes

No medication is needed
No discussions with a shrink
All I need going forward now
Is my space, some room to think.

My New Years resolutions are
More resolutions for the rest of my days
To learn guitar (i know its lame!)
And to fundamentally change my ways

I've bought a guitar, I've made a start
I've learnt a chord so far
Ha, I'm really rocking there
So watch out Johnny Marr! (Not)

And with regard to changing ways
That's more about my mind
And how I react to pressure, challenges
And at home time leave work behind.

I have a life outside of work
And I must make it more mine!
I may not be on earth for very long
And I'm gonna make best use my time!

If you like me have challenges
That no one else can see
Then I hope you can place some trust
And some faith, albeit blind, in me

You have it in you to change your path
It's there inside your head
Do what I've done, dispense with fuzz
And think about you instead.

Fuzz comes in so many forms
Others feelings, pressures, finance.
Well they're there regardless
So stop worrying and dance!

Let your hair down
Do whatever it is you love
And mold your world around yourself
Until it fits you like a glove.

Now I'm off, I've said my piece
I know what's in my reach
So I'm away to do my best
And practice what I preach

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Lightning and thunder.

Dare you let this life
Pass you by
When it's so full
Of wonder

Full of passion
Full of love
Full off lightning crashes
And thunder

Life can be so placid
So straight forward
And lacking in joy

But life should be like
A child at Christmas
Opening a brand new toy

We should feel passion
We should feel love
And grab our chances to live

Because all too soon
It is gone
And has nothing left to give

So why do we set limits
And deny ourselves
Joy for real

The physical
The spiritual
The touch and how it feels

Don't look back at life
When your time comes
And have regret

Make decisions that are right today
This life's yours
Please don't forget.

Loosely labelled here

I'm not sure why
No rationale
But today I felt inclined
To tell those who are dear to me
How I felt
From deep inside

It's difficult
Because there are those
Who mean an awful lot
Who don't know that
I'd include them
On my list quite near to the top.

So like the coward
that I am
ill tell no one directly
Instead I'll post
This poem here
Anonymous, discretely.

There are those who are obvious
like family
and mates
Who I love without condition
See a lot of
And that's great

But they know,
Or I hope they do
How important that they are.
It's not to them
I'm talking really
It's to those who are more afar.

To those I'd not dare tell how much
They're existence
As part of my life
Helps every day
Enabling me
To get through trouble and strife

To those who only touched my life
Fleetingly, and are
Now gone
They are a part of who I was
And who I am
As I move on

To those who are on the fringes,
Who I know
But don't know really
I have a great relationship
As I can talk
Very clearly

I've great affection
For the people whom
I've loosely labeled here
I hope you know
If you are one
And hold me equally dear

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