Blind faith

I can laugh now,
reading my own words back,
And that's a result itself
Because laughter was absent last year
With my fucked up mental health

But what I find amusing
In my musing here last year
Is that 2013 seemed the answer
And now 2013's here!

And nothing really changes,
Midnight only really dawns tomorrow
Not a new life, not redemption
No joy will spring from sorrow

I understand its a point in time
Something on which to focus
But new year isn't magical
There'll be no hocus pocus!

The changes in ones self don't need
A Calendar to alter
You're the only one who decides
If you press on or if you falter

I heard myself say that
I'd "had a bit of a bad year"
And fair enough I suppose all told
I had shed the odd tear!

But I'm the master of myself
And know the changes I have to make
To ensure that going forward
I don't make the same mistakes

No medication is needed
No discussions with a shrink
All I need going forward now
Is my space, some room to think.

My New Years resolutions are
More resolutions for the rest of my days
To learn guitar (i know its lame!)
And to fundamentally change my ways

I've bought a guitar, I've made a start
I've learnt a chord so far
Ha, I'm really rocking there
So watch out Johnny Marr! (Not)

And with regard to changing ways
That's more about my mind
And how I react to pressure, challenges
And at home time leave work behind.

I have a life outside of work
And I must make it more mine!
I may not be on earth for very long
And I'm gonna make best use my time!

If you like me have challenges
That no one else can see
Then I hope you can place some trust
And some faith, albeit blind, in me

You have it in you to change your path
It's there inside your head
Do what I've done, dispense with fuzz
And think about you instead.

Fuzz comes in so many forms
Others feelings, pressures, finance.
Well they're there regardless
So stop worrying and dance!

Let your hair down
Do whatever it is you love
And mold your world around yourself
Until it fits you like a glove.

Now I'm off, I've said my piece
I know what's in my reach
So I'm away to do my best
And practice what I preach

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